you know me, i'm impulsive.

Things I Don’t Understand And Definitely Am Not Going To Talk About

thingsidontunderstandand:

• On her day off, when she had nothing to do and everything to do, she had a panic attack. Because she finally had the time.
• She felt in control, at least, of that much.

i am currently in the middle of this eggers beauty,

illuminatedwallflower:

“I like the dark part of the night, after midnight and before four-thirty, when it’s hollow, when ceilings are harder and farther away. Then I can breathe, and can think while others are sleeping, in a way can stop time, can have it so - this has always been my dream - so that while everyone else is frozen, I can work busily about them, doing whatever it is that needs to be done, like the elves who make shoes while the children sleep”

— A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius by Dave Eggers (via threeseptembersandajanuary)

Two, beware of enthusiasm and of love, both are temporary and quick to sway.

It seems as though, i am going insane. Either i am becoming seriously depressed or suffering from bi polar tendencies. Or both. Or is this just a trick that my mind isn’t giving up on? Oh life, you just seem to get more complicated as the years go by.

i need i need i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed

so many things going on in my mind that need to be done;but this body will not give in.

sad night

non-smoker gone bad

i need to make a list of things i need but they all come to me in such spaced moments that i can’t remember any except for the fact that i am in desperate need of everyday socks and also wanting a bunch of large guy t-shirts. Oh and i also might need another blanket for my bed. Some people make mad sometimes and they know exactly how to do it and get me tongue tied in a way i cannot reply with a smart comment. DAMN THEM. ugh. I got so flustered that i woke up the wrong men on my wake ups. i need more coffee and i need to buy cigarettes. horrible, horrible habit developing. i need to remember wtf i had listed in my mind to do.

double shift today; ugh pure insanity.
fingers crossed for a good memory. jesus, seriously now.