April 2010
1 post
Things I Don't Understand And Definitely Am Not...
thingsidontunderstandand:
On her day off, when she had nothing to do and everything to do, she had a panic attack. Because she finally had the time.
She felt in control, at least, of that much.
May 2009
1 post
February 2009
4 posts
i am currently in the middle of this eggers...
illuminatedwallflower:
“I like the dark part of the night, after midnight and before four-thirty, when it’s hollow, when ceilings are harder and farther away. Then I can breathe, and can think while others are sleeping, in a way can stop time, can have it so - this has always been my dream - so that while everyone else is frozen, I can work busily about them, doing whatever it is that needs to be...
Two, beware of enthusiasm and of love, both are...
It seems as though, i am going insane. Either i am becoming seriously depressed or suffering from bi polar tendencies. Or both. Or is this just a trick that my mind isn’t giving up on? Oh life, you just seem to get more complicated as the years go by.
December 2008
4 posts
i need i need i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed
so many things going on in my mind that need to be done;but this body will not give in.
sad night
non-smoker gone bad
i need to make a list of things i need but they all come to me in such spaced moments that i can’t remember any except for the fact that i am in desperate need of everyday socks and also wanting a bunch of large guy t-shirts. Oh and i also might need another blanket for my bed. Some people make mad sometimes and they know exactly how to do it and get me tongue tied in a way i cannot reply...
November 2008
14 posts
i like when little things make the most sense. when shadows draw me in closer;hands;backs;feet;legs. they click in my mind without hesitation. i don’t even understand it, but what difference does it make? it doesn’t even come to matter. i like when simple things play tricks on your mind/body like you were somewhere else, then reality hits … …hard. the best feelings are the...
lose hope for other people, but never for yourself.
lately i've been
jotterbook:
missing it. i’ve been missing the crushing and the shy flirting and the impossible chasing and the wretched nights and seemingly unbearable heartache. i miss having that one person in my life so much, it’s almost retarded. it’s like i ache for all of that again. and i’m fairly tempted to go back to any one of those people, even though i know i know I KNOW i shouldn’t.
i need to...
always a favorite.
holga:
antikris:
...
mmm this is exactly how i feel
crushes:
B,
I have an irresistible desire to kiss your jawline…
— G
“I laughed and said, Life is easy. What I meant was, Life is easy with you here,...”
– miranda july
“There is a big difference in what we long for, what we settle for and what we...”
“No one likes hearing this, but sometimes the person you want the most is the...”
the body breaks;
i am trying not to let myself get too close. i am trying to separate these feelings to see a full concept of things. i like looking at you, even the little things;the way you make that sideways smile when i make a smart ass remark;even when we sometimes can’t even look at each other in the eye for longer than the limited time we give ourselves. i am nervous around you. sometimes my anxiety...
i wonder if there is someone who will make me feel 100 different things at the same time.
take only what you need from it.
i feel a splurge of impulsive money spending is going to happen soon. from jeans to new words on my body and back to hats for the upcoming nights of biking to work. my eyes hurt from lack of sleep and this damn computer screen. if i read i get sleepy. i have a can of almonds that i was randomly given;i love random things but i don’t know what to do with them. my butt is getting accustomed to...
October 2008
10 posts
remember:
don’t get your hopes up;they’ll just come right back down.
again and again,
insanity is slowing taking over..
“Never leave the person you love for the person you’re attracted to because...”
– translated from a french song.
this is what it will come to:
“so i am dating this girl who is totally my type in every way, witty, sarcastic, super cute, interesting, and surprising; except i cannot stop thinking about you.”
and then i walk away.
polar opposites
but, i like you and you make me nervous.
typical i know,
but i just don’t get girls. do they get me?
this “weekend’s” plan consists of:
tuesday::sleeping in;depositing check;hang out with ashley in her comfy bed.
wednesday::trying to sleep non-grave shift hours;drinking day with paul.
thursday::maybe clean around room/apt;buy groceries;random thrifting;drinking with eli.
between all this, the intended goals for this week are:
hang out with rachel.
used book hunting!
p.s....
“i can tell your lying. your lips are moving.”
sleep in 3 hrs :O
day one
i have no clue why i decided to get this;but what can i say working grave shifts makes you do weird things >.<