4th
take only what you need from it.
i feel a splurge of impulsive money spending is going to happen soon. from jeans to new words on my body and back to hats for the upcoming nights of biking to work. my eyes hurt from lack of sleep and this damn computer screen. if i read i get sleepy. i have a can of almonds that i was randomly given;i love random things but i don’t know what to do with them. my butt is getting accustomed to my daily bike rides but my legs are still sore and somehow bruised. today i will sleep all day like i do every time i work 18 hrs straight. i am growing bored of things and not sure of what to do to change that. i am being extra slow and extra careful with things that are currently evolving;if they even are, that’s exactly where the cautiousness comes in. because in reality i have no clue, no clue and i’m not sure if i want any. is it that i’ve actually gained patience in my life? or that i’ve actually accomplished being content with my solitude? we will soon see. things of this nature only grow if they were real in the first place, right? it appears as though i have a beer belly, this may be very true i have gained 17 pounds in the past few months. when i tried to put on my very non stretchable jeans today, i had to lay in bed and the zipper is still struggling to stay up at this moment;i also have to pull my underwear down because it bunches up, which is rather uncomfortable because my rings get caught. i need to make more time for my family, i rarely see them and my dog. i do not want to start missing anyone that is not blood related or of close relation; you know what i mean. because really, i do not want/need this once again.
